tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85469113480002136542024-03-14T08:31:44.132+08:00JinQuanKenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.comBlogger461125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-27025344205138118932023-04-09T03:15:00.001+08:002023-04-09T03:15:04.710+08:00The HIKE<p>A few years later</p><p>I appreciate everything</p><p>The group that</p><p>Willing</p><p>Join me in the crusade</p><p><br /></p><p>I forever grateful</p><p>The group that went through the trauma with me</p><p>Although deep down I never admit it</p><p>But this is my take</p><p>Although they don't realize</p><p><br /></p><p>But hey, I told myself</p><p>This was never about anyone</p><p>or myself</p><p><br /></p><p>It was getting the awareness or milestone </p><p>For a person getting 30's</p><p><br /></p><p>Do I want to spend the rest of my life</p><p>with her?</p><p><br /></p><p>I was searching for the answer every night before I sleep</p><p>And</p><p>Yes</p><p><br /></p><p>She brightens my day</p><p>Everyday</p><p>She was weird enough that made me feel comfortable</p><p>She sees my vulnerable side every time</p><p>She calls out my bullshit</p><p>She willing to stay</p><p>that all matters </p><p><br /></p><p>I damn lucky enough to have her</p><p>I love U</p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrA9pGQM7-a_0e2iHFRq1N-un3zSCLjQfpUzncZiac0Uvfj7TZOiSR48bxWdRwMOnrQyLQv2maNyLHCU4A3ORAfNN37_vmd2vyHhtQKsTHUJYj1by-IITk5hgpg9CGjFCdEgKRhkTCZI2Z19SbTCPj1UrU8BHUJry-_ZVz7ngBfKjEWAbaelzeGHLW/s1440/CD59BEAB-6676-4D75-BE1A-9B5FE2A17FAF.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1440" height="480" 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make up those missed time</div><div>As I should be</div><div><br /></div><div>I was emotional once, that can't change</div><div>I hope, I'm better now</div><div>And I felt that rational thinking I need it from years ago</div><div><br /></div><div>Funny</div><div>The most rational-thinking friend I have </div><div>Recently doing a lot of irrational decisions as I was years ago</div><div>I smirk</div><div>But I help anyway</div><div>Because I know how that darkness will look like if I let it be</div><div>I don't want another person to go into the abyss, that I went through years ago</div><div>But really up to him</div><div>And I hope he found happiness</div><div>Just because he is one of my best friend</div><div>The friend that I need when the moment of time</div><div><br /></div><div>2AM</div><div>Father hasn't slept, he missed mom</div><div>Not because I guess, but because of his act</div><div>I'm powerless, to help him</div><div>The only way I can help him</div><div>Is to make sure, every damn time</div><div>He is feeling good and better</div><div>I couldn't imagine what he going through and I hope he found his way</div><div><br /></div><div>Last drink for me, close to drunk for my body system</div><div>Closing here now and then</div><div>I wish and hope</div><div>Is a good year for me</div><div><br /></div><div>If you reading this</div><div>Happy new year to you too</div><div>Wish you a great year ahead</div><div><br /></div>Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-28978515788873624642022-10-09T06:03:00.004+08:002022-10-09T06:03:58.645+08:00MilesChallenges for 1 <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OvbSgMPJG_4&ab_channel=VersusMusicOfficial">song </a>blog<div>Miles</div><div><br /></div><div>A new job</div><div>A new calling</div><div>I hope</div><div><br /></div><div>Not much a leader most of my life</div><div>At least the past few years made me be</div><div>And I am thankful (R.Y.)</div><div><br /></div><div>The song is close to the end</div><div>But my mind still constructing the sentences</div><div><br /></div><div><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cyberpunk:_Edgerunners">Cyberpunk 2077: Edgerunner</a> is an epic series</div><div>That made me made write a blog</div><div>At least</div><div><br /></div><div>But I doubt</div><div>At this point</div><div>Anyone will revisit this blog anymore</div><div><br /></div><div>A dead blog anyway</div><div><br /></div><div>5.40AM now</div><div>Why am I still here?</div><div>Just to prove I'm still young to stay up all night?</div><div><br /></div><div>Nah</div><div>Raining outside</div><div>With headphone</div><div>Hear nothing but the song <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BnnbP7pCIvQ&ab_channel=Cyberpunk2077">Let You Down</a></div><div><br /></div><div>FUNNY</div><div>There was a time</div><div>I do believe, what you said</div><div>But same as always</div><div>When I need you</div><div>You're not there</div><div>Not even try</div><div><br /></div><div>Then I realize </div><div>All this time</div><div>ALL THIS TIME</div><div>Just</div><div>Nothing but mirage</div><div><br /></div><div>But now</div><div>It really doesn't matter</div><div><br /></div><div>I glad</div><div>We didn't </div><div>Or I didn't </div><div>Fate or not</div><div>I'm glad we really didn't </div><div>And I still wish</div><div>You found happiness</div><div><br /></div><div>It's okay</div><div>I tried to succeed the dream you wanted</div><div>But</div><div>The choice is not on me but on you</div><div><br /></div><div>Maybe this might be the last time</div><div>I refer to you as you</div><div>Maybe</div><div>After a few recent chat</div><div>There is no more us or you anymore</div><div>One reluctant help</div><div>I just knew</div><div>It just still you you</div><div>To me</div><div><br /></div><div>And that just plainly put it</div><div>We're always miles distance</div><div>And I don't blame</div><div><br /></div><div>It just clarifies everything</div><div>Let's bury deep</div><div>And I hope</div><div>I never dig it up again</div><div><br /></div>Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-91270448675280145062022-03-03T01:54:00.002+08:002022-03-03T01:54:33.183+08:00Some new yearsSometime<div>Life just hits you</div><div>and they dare to say </div><div>lightning never strikes twice</div><div><br /></div><div>Just after two months</div><div>My other half mom</div><div>Left the world</div><div><br /></div><div>The feelings of losing someone</div><div>It just hit again</div><div><br /></div><div>Then </div><div>We fell into a mess</div><div><br /></div><div>We're all in a mess</div><div><br /></div><div>We grasp so hard but it slips through so easily</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm so mentally drained and tired</div><div>I told myself maybe all this</div><div>All this is a test</div><div>You know eventually</div><div>someone close to you'll leave</div><div>But you chose to ignore</div><div>because you know that not going to happen at the moment</div><div>Until</div><div>It happens</div><div><br /></div><div>Then my love and I</div><div>We hit the lowest point of our life</div><div>I guess</div><div>We didn't properly manage our communication </div><div>There comes our biggest argument since we knew each other</div><div><br /></div><div>I guess</div><div>I always tried to avoid any conflict</div><div>or anything things that I'm really not confident of</div><div><br /></div><div>But this had to change</div><div>and I trying</div><div><br /></div><div>Hope the next update will be a fruitful and joyful ones</div><div>See ya</div><div><br /></div>Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-20758735510989717412021-11-20T02:53:00.005+08:002021-11-20T02:53:36.830+08:00FearI never understood the actual fear<div>Until</div><div>Someone close to you </div><div>Left</div><div>Without a sign</div><div>I guess</div><div>I'm too afraid to face it</div><div><br /></div><div>It's been </div><div>Two months</div><div>Since mom left</div><div>23 September</div><div>Date I couldn't forget</div><div><br /></div><div>Father been grieving in his own way</div><div><br /></div><div>Brother tried stepping up his game </div><div><br /></div><div>Sister same old same but I just hope</div><div>She will better than me, future</div><div><br /></div><div>It's not easy for the pass few months</div><div><br /></div><div>I been trying to be strong</div><div>Keep it together</div><div>Mentally prepare for anything</div><div><br /></div><div>But</div><div><br /></div><div>It's not enough</div><div><br /></div><div>Some day I just told myself</div><div>Or worst lie to myself</div><div>That everything going be alright</div><div>Which not</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm over stress</div><div>For everything</div><div><br /></div><div>Mom</div><div>I just hope</div><div>Your afterlife</div><div>Got a better family</div><div><br /></div>Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-14583508783878916522021-03-24T02:24:00.000+08:002021-03-24T02:24:20.288+08:00At this point<p> At this point</p><p>You wonder how many failures you have been</p><p>Failure just another reason you get back up to your game</p><p>Life is like a game</p><p>Either you get cheat code on start</p><p>or you build from start</p><p>But you'll never too late</p><p><br /></p><p>At the modern age</p><p>When you start to compare yourself to others</p><p>Means you desire</p><p>Desire something</p><p>Something more</p><p>Pursuit that goal is something next to your mind</p><p>But never</p><p>Ever</p><p>Defy your heart</p><p>Your origin idealism</p><p> </p>Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-23908596867439825972020-10-18T05:55:00.001+08:002020-10-18T05:55:16.344+08:00Too much recent update to update<p>Hey</p><p>You</p><p>Yes</p><p>Is you</p><p>Don't turn away yet</p><p>Seem like 4 of June I update once</p><p>Sorry too much of myself?</p><p><br /></p><p>Recently I discover</p><p>The inevitable</p><p>Wake</p><p>Work</p><p>Eat</p><p>Sleep</p><p>If I want, drunk maybe</p><p>But I don't like the drunk version of myself</p><p>But again</p><p>I enjoy it</p><p><br /></p><p>At this hour</p><p>I should sleeping</p><p>But with alcohol</p><p>I was wide awake</p><p>Look at my top right </p><p>A Window</p><p>It might tell me</p><p>If Sun is coming up</p><p><br /></p><p>I'm alright if you ask me</p><p>I should sleep</p><p>But sometime</p><p>Thought</p><p>Purpose</p><p>Issue and solution </p><p>Prevented my sleeping</p><p><br /></p><p>Sometimes</p><p>I can sleep like Hypnos</p><p>Maybe too much of Hades (A game consist Greek mythology I recently get addicted about)</p><p><br /></p><p>But anyway</p><p>I should sleep</p><p><br /></p><p>If so, why you update the blog?</p><p>Maybe I just like to write stuff that I didn't show in front of people</p><p>Even my closest friend or family</p><p><br /></p><p>Maybe when drunk it really can show myself</p><p>But until then</p><p>I keep all this to myself</p><p><br /></p><p>Goodnight world.</p><p><br /></p>Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-36351367543230761872020-06-04T01:19:00.000+08:002020-06-04T01:19:54.841+08:00停留4年前<br />
似乎大家的博客最后更新<br />
都停留在4年前<br />
而自己接近2年没写了<br />
说好“封”博客呢?<br />
<br />
但还是爱写<br />
还是回到了这里<br />
<br />
这些年<br />
<br />
说不出的蜕变<br />
说不出的感慨<br />
说不出的当下<br />
<br />
回想2012年<br />
那是8年前<br />
刚中学毕业的自己<br />
依然爱写博客<br />
舒坦自己的情感<br />
<br />
因为在这里<br />
才能真正的释放自己的情绪<br />
奔放自己<br />
<br />
为什么将近2年没写<br />
因为<br />
找到了自己的情感磁铁<br />
真心感谢博客那些年的感情抒发<br />
<br />
然而我依然心系这博客<br />
好吧<br />
以后<br />
至少一年更新一次吧<br />
虽然没人读<br />
但<br />
至少是自己的心历<br />
<br />
问自己<br />
<br />
生活与理想<br />
接近了吗?<br />
不然但需加倍努力<br />
<br />
美好?<br />
瞳景<br />
<br />
幸福?<br />
依然<br />
<br />
成长?<br />
每天<br />
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<br />Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-13703997410611185522018-08-03T04:53:00.002+08:002018-08-03T04:53:34.567+08:00难得的假期+更新Hi! <div>
你好</div>
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对不起</div>
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相隔6个月的更新</div>
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希望你时不时等待我可能的更新</div>
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这六个月</div>
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我都过得很好</div>
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酒喝少了</div>
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哈哈</div>
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这个事实</div>
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现在想更新也是因为明天(其实是今天)对我来说是一个假期</div>
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加上喝了一些威士忌</div>
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听着The Killers 的音乐</div>
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很有感觉 就想更新了</div>
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若是让她知道我那么迟睡觉 又要被骂了</div>
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今年的MCFA坐板凳了</div>
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或许我真的往后退了很多步</div>
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或许像她说的 我的重心不再是足球</div>
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当家里都过得去的时候</div>
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足球是我唯一能逃避一切的出路</div>
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现在 家里差不多都依赖着我 加上弟弟的不争气</div>
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我真的无可奈何</div>
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好在我一直都是省吃俭用</div>
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超级会忍一切的诱惑</div>
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加上不爱花钱</div>
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我现在能体会什么叫以家庭为先的感觉</div>
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当你有所有诱惑在等待着你时</div>
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你知道 唯有放下诱惑 才能拯救他们</div>
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当你非常清楚自己是一个</div>
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对自己人爱的人心很软的人</div>
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你唯有妥协</div>
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一切</div>
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所有的一切</div>
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只为帮助他们</div>
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牺牲自己</div>
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25年</div>
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我觉得我有资格说自己怎样的一个人</div>
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我知道</div>
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牺牲这个词</div>
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对我自己不陌生</div>
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因为</div>
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任何必须牺牲自我的情况下</div>
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我都会找一个原因</div>
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让自己的牺牲是为了更好的未来</div>
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这是为自己洗脑</div>
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也是让自己好过一些</div>
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4点了</div>
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刚和妈妈谈了家里的状况</div>
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然后威士忌还不够 我决定加注</div>
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和妈妈谈了</div>
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发现</div>
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我必须加倍努力</div>
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去争取更好的职位</div>
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我会说职位是因为</div>
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有一个导师曾说过 “让自己增值 等于让自己的薪水增值”</div>
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而我选择 相信 知识等于财富</div>
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简单的工作日 并不能带来增值</div>
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唯有突破自己的极限才能有更好的未来</div>
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我希望那天我能看到</div>
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妈妈不再负债 看到她要的东西我能买给她</div>
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爸爸能任意花钱他想要的东西</div>
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而我能不顾虑就买我想要的东西</div>
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我真的希望有一天 我能做到这样</div>
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25了</div>
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25许多人都开始筹钱买屋子了</div>
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而我才开始做工</div>
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我从来都不相信什么第一桶金</div>
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因为我觉得那是愚蠢的目标</div>
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为了钱而设的目标</div>
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而</div>
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现在的我</div>
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时常载一些队友</div>
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一些乳臭未干的小朋友</div>
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让我的觉得</div>
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这是对感恩的人的回报</div>
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当你受恩惠</div>
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你想把你感受的恩惠传到下一个人</div>
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你不知道这个会不会成功</div>
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但你只会对自己说</div>
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当你有能力</div>
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你就尽力</div>
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问心无愧</div>
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那是最好的答案</div>
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睡觉吧</div>
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5点了</div>
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等下还有MCFA的比赛</div>
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休息然后再战</div>
Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-6381157635849257462018-02-28T04:10:00.000+08:002018-02-28T04:10:20.547+08:00意外有些意外<div>
不说不说</div>
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就成了历史,过去</div>
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凌晨3点01分</div>
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开始写我的接近一年后的部落格</div>
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刚从Langkawi旅行回来</div>
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一个总结来说</div>
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这个旅行 比起以前</div>
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开心很多</div>
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虽然</div>
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喝的酒比较少</div>
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但</div>
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开拓视野的旅程变多</div>
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一直都希望和家人一起开拓新的视野</div>
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着旅行圆了梦</div>
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照片未能及时洗出来因为技术上的问题</div>
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不过我都打算放一些可以看的到insta</div>
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但突然想写不是因为这个</div>
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而是因为</div>
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去年那个时候</div>
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我决定不再追逐</div>
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自己一直深爱却不被爱的人</div>
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我不怪她</div>
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怪就怪</div>
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有本事喜欢别人 没本事让人喜欢你</div>
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我希望 那一年 这一年 她都安好</div>
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虽然我们没常联络</div>
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但</div>
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真心希望她能很好</div>
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<br /></div>
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过去</div>
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我说过的话</div>
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我给的承诺</div>
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我们对彼此的期待</div>
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我们给对方的承诺</div>
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对我而言</div>
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是一种成长</div>
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对你又是怎样的体验呢?</div>
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我想知道</div>
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可是</div>
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每当我们见面时</div>
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彼此都带着一些不想让对方知道的面具</div>
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隐瞒</div>
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深怕因为说了而给对方留下能判断自己印象</div>
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而毁了自己的形象</div>
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然而</div>
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当我们再一次见面时</div>
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彼此都有了心上人</div>
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可能</div>
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一直以来</div>
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我只想安定且找一个能和我疯狂的人</div>
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而我找到了</div>
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而你</div>
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而你</div>
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我忘了</div>
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去完全爱你的感觉是怎样的</div>
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完全去猜测和感受你的情况</div>
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是怎样的</div>
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我忘了</div>
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该怎么去感受</div>
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你</div>
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该怎么去观察</div>
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你</div>
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而你的感情</div>
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我希望你能找到你的</div>
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不再乱</div>
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不再慌</div>
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只求你拥有简单的幸福</div>
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你想要的爱情</div>
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的确</div>
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无可否认</div>
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那些年</div>
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我爱过你</div>
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深深的爱过你</div>
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但</div>
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说白了</div>
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自己一厢情愿</div>
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<br /></div>
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现在</div>
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虽不爱</div>
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但</div>
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心底总还是会有你</div>
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可能这个就是别人说的</div>
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真的深深爱过的烙印</div>
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而这个烙印</div>
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不疼反而珍惜</div>
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谢谢有了这段经历</div>
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才知道怎样对待接下来的感情</div>
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现在3点59分</div>
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写完</div>
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睡觉</div>
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几时再更新</div>
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我真的不知道</div>
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你就别等</div>
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因为</div>
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我开始往前跑了</div>
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Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-23224084311937460422017-04-09T01:17:00.001+08:002017-04-09T01:17:05.743+08:00巴士站那天 出门时天气很好 带着睡意的我去上课 到站 头低着下火车 上阶梯 然后下阶梯时看见一个很熟悉的书包 吊饰 装扮 背影 是她<br />
<br />
就那么一刹那 我的心跳的很快 很快 在过票站时 我故意站在她的后面<br />
<br />
然后自己纠结了几秒 才跟她说 hi 那时 她往身旁的铁板撞了一下 看着我<br />
<br />
“诶?” 她惊讶地看着我<br />
“嗨。怎么你在这里?” 我问<br />
“ 你跟踪我啊?”<br />
“嗯,是咯。”<br />
“你的课不是在很迟才有吗?”<br />
“嗯,不过我想早来。那你怎样去学校?搭巴士?”<br />
<br />
其实我知道她来这里的目的<br />
“诶,这里怎样搭巴士的?” 她说<br />
“走咯,一起搭巴士咯。” 我说<br />
“唔 不了 我有朋友来载我。”<br />
<br />
我没有想就直接知道是谁的问她<br />
“哦?谁?Joshua?” 我问<br />
“嗯”<br />
“哦 好吧。”<br />
“那你要一起做车吗?”<br />
<br />
我迟疑了一下说:“好啊。”<br />
然后我们还是没有什么眼神交集<br />
可是我看着她<br />
她 依然是那么的 漂亮 能让我 的心从每分钟80跳下 用3秒时间 直上每分钟120下<br />
此时此刻 我感觉 自己又要开始陷入一种循环<br />
<br />
然后我对她说:“唔 我觉得我还是去等巴士比较好 你在这里等他吧。”<br />
“怎么了? 一起啦 没关系的”<br />
“不了 我去等巴士吧。”<br />
“为什么你要弄到那么Awkward?那么尴尬?” 她心里急着的问<br />
“啊?什么尴尬?没有啊。就 我不想打扰你们俩。” 我说<br />
“好啦 好啦 你走 你走 不要回来” 她 生气的说<br />
<br />
不知道是我多心还是什么的 我看见她好像要哭了<br />
之后我挥挥手 然后往巴士站等巴士<br />
坐在巴士站的我整个人心跳很快 脸都青了 我上了巴士 手还在抖 不知道为什么<br />
<br />
那个你喜欢的人 你拼了命追了5年 和你一起经历很多的人 她视为你是她很重要的人 你也视她为生命里 其中一个很重要的人 就 她对你说 “尴尬” 你不会觉得奇怪吗?<br />
<br />
如果是以前的我 我会答应 然后一起做车 我会基本上会为她做任何事情 而且是200%的卖力和成果 现在的我 真的不确定了 毕竟 从那一刻 我对她许下承诺 答应她 我在也不会有对她 拥有任何想发展更进一步的关系后 感觉我变得不是 以前的那个自己<br />
<br />
那天我们的见面后的30分钟 天空就下起雨<br />
我问自己<br />
你还在乎吗?<br />
你还爱她吗?<br />
我看见的 全是自己点头的影像<br />
Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-3493840615198836392017-03-25T08:09:00.000+08:002017-03-25T08:09:52.482+08:00Morning Well, here I am. Again. I hope the last post I did anything stupid because by far what I concern I did post a title. It is 7.30am now, morning! I have something to confess about.<br />
<br />
I going to stop everything of the girl I met earlier. Not because of feels or not suitable for each others or any reason you can think of. It's just I'm not ready yet. I feel like there is so much darkness inside me, and she is kind and pure heart that I can't taint. I can't just release my darkness into someone.<br />
<br />
"In relationship, if you hesitate , then the answer is simple. Either you both not ready, or one of you doesn't love another enough."<br />
<br />
Don't get me wrong, I'm still happy. I have friends that annoyed me so much, try to burn me into ground and much more. Relationship? I'm no ready.<br />
<br />
By the way, it is really weird if I not mention it. So yesterday I got sleep early and I didn't check the phone. In my sleep, I dream about somewhere a house, you coming in after your Frisbee match. You look, taller than me I guess? We didn't have eyes contact and you just walk right pass through me. Then I awake. I get off bed at 7am. Check on phone and here it is, I saw your message. Nothing much just a link to Lazada. Weird. Really weird. FYI, I mean you is Ms. J here.<br />
Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-61258527720942879482017-03-21T01:52:00.001+08:002017-03-21T01:54:46.661+08:00HappierThe song that recently that keep me playing at an emotional period<br />
<div>
Ed Sheeran -- Happier</div>
<div>
Talented artist, the lyric just write deep through my heart</div>
<div>
For a long time, I feel like I never been myself</div>
<div>
Until I met a girl recently</div>
<div>
She</div>
<div>
Is awesome, there are words I can't find to describe her</div>
<div>
It just everything feels so right</div>
<div>
Sometimes I discover we actually like the same stuff</div>
<div>
And when I say same is that nerdy stuff</div>
<div>
I just never met a girl that can differentiate DC comic and Marvel </div>
<div>
The more we talk the more I found we a lot in common</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
At the moment, I keep on review and alert myself</div>
<div>
If I'm prepared or desperately jump into a relationship</div>
<div>
The girl is interested </div>
<div>
But I afraid </div>
<div>
Because I'm not sure I ready to commit to another girl </div>
<div>
"God, please give me the strength." </div>
<div>
So, I told the girl I want to take it slow</div>
<div>
She agreed</div>
<div>
Because both of us hurt by those so call "TAKERS" in relationship</div>
<div>
After that conversation, she confess to me that she still think about "HIM"</div>
<div>
But I never told her that I still hold on Ms.J</div>
<div>
Or told her anything about Ms.J stories</div>
<div>
Because I want to start new, start fresh, left all old scar behind like nothing</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
5 years for a girl, I think I'm fair to say, there was no progress</div>
<div>
I don't blame her, I just blame myself I can't give her feelings that fall in love with me</div>
<div>
If the girl don't have the interest of you, there is nothing you can do to get her heart</div>
<div>
If you do everything like I did to her and eventually she have feelings for you</div>
<div>
Congrats, I wish and bless you both, because you are the lucky one</div>
<div>
If not, please take your time move on and take every possibility to know every girl</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
I don't care you are flirt or being a jerk as long as you move on the girl who TAKES everything of you, including happiness</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
If you still can care for her, it's not a big deal, but REMEMBER REAL HARD, who you going to be when you care for her. As a friend? or as the person who loves her since the start. </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
I can't believe I saying this </div>
<div>
But I did happier recently </div>
<div>
After I feel like happiness not going to fall on me anytime soon</div>
<div>
But</div>
<div>
I did feel happier to care for someone </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
But hey</div>
<div>
Once I confirm something </div>
<div>
I try to post her to tell my reader</div>
<div>
OKAY?</div>
<div>
Peace</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-59645607124161486222017-02-23T03:07:00.000+08:002017-02-23T03:09:05.102+08:00哈!你就好咯!哈!<br />
没想到同一个时候有两个更新<br />
我只是醉了<br />
想写些东西<br />
可能我傻了<br />
以为能逃避这一切<br />
才发现原来<br />
逃避关于你<br />
是多么的困难<br />
对不起让你烦了<br />
那么久了<br />
我想我的对不起也没价值了<br />
相同与我对你做的东西对你也没任何感觉了<br />
筹备惊喜也只换来你的"算到我会那么做"的眼神<br />
我不能再这样下去了<br />
我知道你不能像恋人般的爱我<br />
我也知道你还是用以前的眼神看我<br />
用你还是不认为我会改的眼神看我<br />
我接受<br />
因为<br />
我愿意为你<br />
而<br />
你不怎么为我<br />
但<br />
你说我很重要<br />
却<br />
不曾表现我到底对你几重要<br />
你说用心<br />
而当我每次用心做自己<br />
却被你残忍的拒绝<br />
而为你我迷失了自己<br />
剩下的伤口自己舔<br />
自己疗<br />
我问心无愧<br />
我希望你也是<br />
#用手机打的语录<br />
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<br />Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-37115930819746548572017-02-22T19:05:00.002+08:002017-02-22T19:05:49.640+08:00(◕‿◕✿)If you reading this<br />
Please<br />
Go to your email and find the private video I send you<br />
Or<br />
Open up the folder that I put the private video inside<br />
<br />
Please<br />
Go to your Dropbox<br />
I dropped latest documents in there<br />
And<br />
There is plenty for you to read<br />
<br />
And last<br />
I'm Sorry if I getting you annoyed<br />
But hey<br />
Annoyed until you dead<br />
Is hard to do okay?<br />
It is a hurting, no paid, no allowance, sleepless night, emotional fuck up, personality become psychopath, sociopaths, friends disappointed me, body reject to eat, body only need alcohol to numb the pain, creative mind become useless mind, DRY, only write negative stuff, want to commit suicide, asking friend to funeral, maybe sing on my funeral or dress pink in my funeral and etc.<br />
<br />
IT JUST FUCK UP INNER THINKING HOW TO ANNOY YOU THE MOST 🙂🙂🙂<br />
<br />
I glad you sign me up as your SOULMATE 😏😏😏Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-50574970383487205342017-01-17T15:36:00.000+08:002017-01-17T15:36:53.019+08:002017一月新点滴掰 2016, 嗨 2017 <div>
刚开始的2017 给了我不错的开始</div>
<div>
第一次去新加坡 赢了竞标赛</div>
<div>
第一次在决赛扮演着救世主的角色</div>
<div>
第一次连救两粒点球</div>
<div>
带着复杂又开心的心情</div>
<div>
那此时此刻想与你分享</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
活在21世纪的好处是 要是忘了谁人的样子</div>
<div>
网络的发达随时能找到他们的照片</div>
<div>
有时候不小心游览到你的照片</div>
<div>
偷偷的看了一下 确保自己依然有心跳</div>
<div>
然后继续生活着 确保下次我们见面时 彼此是不同的人</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
我知道这样对你的缠绕 是非常非常不健康</div>
<div>
偶尔梦见你 偶尔一些事情令我想起我们</div>
<div>
偶尔对我朋友说我依然对你有些感觉</div>
<div>
那些放不下的感觉 很想放下 但它们就是趁你没准备时 袭击你的心脏</div>
<div>
我说啊 给自己多一些时间 认识多一些人</div>
<div>
但心底还是有个位置 你希望那个人可以在那里</div>
<div>
到最后 希望对方 安好</div>
<div>
不打扰的祝福 就足够了</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
**我希望能在新年前给你半年前你叫我做的东西</div>
<div>
是出了些问题 但我会详细的在里面告诉你**</div>
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<br /></div>
Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-70184333822608393762016-12-28T04:17:00.001+08:002016-12-28T04:17:27.685+08:00End of 2016Before I sleep<br />
I going to note down something<br />
Something happened in my dream yesterday<br />
I guess is was secondary school reunion<br />
I saw you<br />
We walk through each other and I say "HI"<br />
But you snub me off<br />
<br />
The rest I can't remember<br />
The moment you pass through me like a stranger<br />
My sight went black and my mind fall into a rabbit hole<br />
I open my eyes and woke up<br />
The end is like a jump scare, sudden attack<br />
<br />
Believe or not<br />
I try to live a better life now<br />
A life that keeps remind me<br />
You are not coming back anymore<br />
I'm just a stranger to your future and your past<br />
<br />
Someday, I walk past through familiar roads or streets<br />
Hope that I might met you<br />
But only the memories bring you back to me<br />
Good old memories<br />
And it only stays there for eternity<br />
<br />
I still miss you and I will always miss you<br />
<br />
Oh ya<br />
Remember the STAR WARS: The Force Awaken?<br />
We watch together?<br />
There was an old lady inside they called General? But she actually a royalty?<br />
General Leia /Princess Leia the actress (Carrie Fisher) she passed away today<br />
I guess the end of 2016 kinda sucks.Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-22644453549245911682016-12-20T03:05:00.000+08:002016-12-20T03:05:07.191+08:00Some update might end hereHey<div>
How are you?</div>
<div>
I wanted to abandon this place </div>
<div>
But seem like after all this time</div>
<div>
I still back </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
You will expect I will no longer update most of my status here</div>
<div>
"When you live long enough, you'll learn wiser and keep all the secret along in your heart."</div>
<div>
Maybe this said by someone else, maybe no, but these are my inner thought. </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
My friend, you see, the point is, you, live until now, what do you achieve? </div>
<div>
To be honest, I did achieve something in my life, and I proud of it. </div>
<div>
If the grade is given of my life, the only subject I going to fail is the relationship. </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Despite I watched so many TV series, I feel like what they said is totally reflect on me. </div>
<div>
Filtration? I am sure can do it anytime to a girl. Well as long as the girl doesn't feel weird. </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
You know what? </div>
<div>
In future time I might really forget all of the blogging stuff. </div>
<div>
Twitter is the only way I put my emotion on.</div>
<div>
I just can't imagine that I going to put this all behind</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Secret</div>
<div>
Lies</div>
<div>
Betrayer </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
All you need to learn and live with it</div>
<div>
I am secret and lies, haven't reach betrayer. </div>
<div>
I hope someday I will </div>
<div>
or maybe not</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Since in future society, there are no longer trust and real. </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
If the person care enough </div>
<div>
or claim enough that </div>
<div>
you are one of the important people in their lives </div>
<div>
they will do something </div>
<div>
even the tiniest thing that you will notice </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
That's what I told myself every night before I sleep. </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-25352203587198360102016-10-01T23:03:00.000+08:002016-10-01T23:03:01.731+08:00留我不希望就这样就失去写东西给你的能力<br />
对于我上一段恋情(也就是6年前)也因为遇见你而停止写关于她的东西<br />
那能力消失在遇见你后<br />
<br />
但现在情况不同了<br />
我说能力会消失不是因为我找到了另一半<br />
而真的因为你给我的磨练<br />
是你让我了解怎样承受自己心痛<br />
虽然说你让我了解<br />
但大部分的时间 是我多想 自虐自己的心<br />
也因为你<br />
让我了解 我想要的另一半要是怎样的一个人<br />
<br />
你的脾气<br />
我从来都不觉得很难附和<br />
反而可以让我更加警惕自己<br />
明白我只能更努力把自己变得更好<br />
<br />
在你决定把我分割到我痊愈的时间里<br />
有时候梦见你 然后惊醒 只差没有呐喊<br />
很辛苦<br />
知道现实没有了你<br />
知道再怎么做都没办法去感动你<br />
知道我从来不值得你去爱<br />
然后梦见的是我们相爱的画面<br />
惊醒后 我笑了 然后心几乎是崩溃边缘<br />
<br />
那几个礼拜<br />
我几乎是迷茫<br />
偶尔听Whatsapp里你留下的声音<br />
和我说话的 骂我的 只要是你的声音都好<br />
<br />
你曾说<br />
“你们不可能失去我,因为最后离开的是你们。”<br />
后来<br />
是你离开我<br />
是我逼到你离开我<br />
到最后原来我还是你最特别的那一个<br />
<br />
我真的有很多要写 很多要说<br />
给你读 给你听<br />
当你读到这里<br />
记得<br />
我的信箱<br />
我的电话<br />
没有封你<br />
有空 有事 没事 想打就打<br />
别犹豫<br />
<br />Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-91749529009309912612016-08-29T17:47:00.003+08:002016-08-29T17:47:44.588+08:00那英 默<span style="font-size: 14px;">忍不住化身一条固执的鱼</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">逆着洋流独自游到底</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">年少时候虔诚发过的誓</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">沉默地沉没在深海里</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">重温几次</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">结局还是 失去你</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">我被爱判处终身孤寂</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">不还手 不放手</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">笔下画不完的圆</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">心间填不满的缘</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">是你</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">为何爱判处众生孤寂</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">挣不脱 逃不过</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">眉头解不开的结</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">命中解不开的劫</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">是你</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">啊 失去你</span><br style="font-size: 14px;" /><span style="font-size: 14px;">啊 我失去你</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: 14px;">我不是不想去做些什么</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;">而是</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;">你有你的自由,你的选择</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;">我只是给意见,让你决定</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;">在这里面</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;">错的是我们只有做朋友的缘分</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;">我很早就接受了这个结果</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;">只是想不到</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;">结局会是这样</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;"><br /></span>Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-63953353095741658832016-08-22T02:28:00.002+08:002016-08-22T02:28:28.540+08:00You tell meWhat happened?<br />
Maybe this is the end?<br />
I don't know.<br />
You tell me.<br />
<br />
What really happened exactly?<br />
It is the apology not sincere enough?<br />
Or the apology from me doesn't have value anymore? <br />
I don't know.<br />
You tell me.<br />
<br />
I should apology on everything,<br />
everything I done for you.<br />
Because it never ends well,<br />
never make you happy.<br />
If it doesn't, I don't know.<br />
You tell me.<br />
<br />
I don't like assume anything anymore.<br />
If you don't like it, I say no more;<br />
If I don't like it, I will say I don't like it.<br />
If I don't know,<br />
I need you tell me.<br />
<br />
I assume for the first time,<br />
we actually last our friendship long enough survive a year.<br />
Keep contact, for each others, hangout every weekends (if possible) and do something we both happy together.<br />
And then I never felt afraid of losing you again, for the first time.<br />
<br />
I trying to fix the printer,<br />
I pull the ink out with no second thought,<br />
next,<br />
you rip my heart out with no second thought.<br />
<br />
People you loved,<br />
you may forgive, but not forgot,<br />
even though the people may treat you bad.<br />
People you loved,<br />
they hurt you, but you tried to change them,<br />
because you still think they will become better.<br />
<br />
<br />
So, please tell me what I really want to know,<br />
Do I ever hurt you, like the way they hurt you?<br />
<br />
<br />
Like I promised you,<br />
when I want to talk,<br />
talk to you ONLY.<br />
But seem, when I shared my thought,<br />
you acted speechless.<br />
I wonder did I said something wrong or right.<br />
<br />
After all we been through,<br />
YOU been through.<br />
I don't want to become your anything,<br />
I just want to be your side every time you need me.<br />
As a person you always hope me become for you.<br />
As a true friend of yours.<br />
<br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><br /></span>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit; font-size: large;"><i>You like water</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit; font-size: large;"><i>Powerful enough to drown me</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit; font-size: large;"><i>Soft enough to cleanse me</i></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit; font-size: large;"><i>Deep enough to save me</i></span></div>
Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-32306475371513659092016-07-11T02:03:00.000+08:002016-07-11T02:03:29.380+08:00How Will I Know我不知道<br />
这接下来<br />
会如何<br />
<br />
同样的<br />
我还是回到这个地方写东西<br />
同样的<br />
我还是喜欢空行与分段写博客<br />
同样的<br />
我还是写自己不了解的心情<br />
也同样的<br />
写着同样男孩与女孩的故事<br />
<br />
3 年了<br />
接下来就第 4 年了<br />
但<br />
今年是特别的一年<br />
至少我感觉我自己变了许多<br />
我变了<br />
她也变了<br />
我们彼此变好了<br />
<br />
而我越来越喜欢<br />
她对我的方式<br />
我不确定是我变了<br />
还是她对我真的变了一种方式<br />
有时候她对我的方式<br />
会让我措手不及<br />
<br />
她好喜欢她的房间<br />
喜欢到不知道怎样形容<br />
其实就如<br />
我好想把我现在的心情<br />
将它们全部写下<br />
但不知道怎样形容<br />
<br />
网上流传着一个<br />
“当你用一种很特别的眼神看着你爱人”<br />
那种眼神通常在她不知道的时候<br />
我望着她<br />
当她在专心吃东西的时候<br />
当她在犹豫选择东西的时候<br />
当她在说一些事情没看着我的时候<br />
当她走在我的前面的时候<br />
当我的眼神剩下全世界她一个人的时候<br />
我明白为何那么久了<br />
那么多次的伤害<br />
那么多次的吵架<br />
几次离别<br />
我还是回来到她身边<br />
<br />
原来爱<br />
不是付出那么简单<br />
不是会回报的过程<br />
不是愿意留下来陪你的人<br />
而是明白,体谅,包容,耐心与接受<br />
<br />
她令我体会到了全部<br />
而不是像看电影那样的去体会爱<br />
<br />
我很喜欢现在的我们<br />
我们能让彼此变得更好<br />
若她把我变的更好<br />
我也会时常鼓励她<br />
就是那种当你爱一个人会想要她更好的一面<br />
<br />
最近我对着西瓜为她下了一个誓言<br />
“以后咱们俩的所有事情,不能对其他人说。”<br />
“若食言,西瓜将会噩梦长眠。”<br />
原本生气的她,笑了<br />
还加了几条毒咒下去<br />
<br />
有时候<br />
她不相信我的话<br />
但<br />
我说的每一个字<br />
都是认真的<br />
然后<br />
我很喜欢她否认我认真说的样子<br />
有点可爱<br />
<br />
读者<br />
说真的<br />
我不知道<br />
这接下来<br />
会如何<br />
那些未知的因数<br />
那些未知的打击<br />
那些未知的路途<br />
恐惧着我<br />
<br />
我希望从这所有未知迷茫路途<br />
看见她确定的明灯把我指向她<br />
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<br />Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-18017547260015142022016-06-10T11:02:00.000+08:002016-06-10T11:02:13.068+08:00Dream #2Last night I dream about you, again<br />
It was a sweet one. Like we did try to make some effort for both of us.<br />
It was night time, we walk on park, suddenly something across the sky, it was a meteor.<br />
I saw you making wish, so do I.<br />
You turn around and asked me what did I wish?<br />
I write it down on a paper.<br />
"I wish I can make you fall in love with me,"<br />
You smile like a sunshine.<br />
I asked you what did you wish?<br />
"I don't want let you know. But why did you take your wish like this?" you said.<br />
"Not every time we can see a meteor fly across the sky together, so I must make it count every time." I reply.<br />
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You say nothing, we walk back to the apartment that we live together.<br />
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Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-8435617764549632712016-05-15T01:27:00.002+08:002016-05-31T02:43:06.323+08:00就地如重游拍【更新隐藏】其实重回这个地方,感觉陌生却又点熟悉。在这闭关的几个月里,我学会更加妥善的处理自己的情感。我真的希望我有很强烈黑暗人格,可是还是因为一些开心,温暖的事情影响了自己的情绪。尝试做一些自己觉得黑暗的事情,或是诱导人去做,结果我得到了我想要的答案。<br />
一,我不可能会有完全黑暗的一面<br />
二,我那黑暗的一面也只是诱导别人去做事情<br />
三,即使内心再黑暗,我也会自己找到光<br />
<br />
当自己内心的矛盾越来越强的时候,我只相信那黑暗的一面可以解决,也是我现在在对自己实行着。在我的经验里,我不相信自己光的那一面可以解决事情。<br />
我不否认,我喜欢我自己黑暗的一面,这让我少了情感的烦恼,专注在手上的事情。胡思乱想的情感来袭,我也只能让它们躲在黑暗里,压抑着,好过丢人现眼的去诉说有的没得。<br />
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有些<span style="color: #cc0000; font-size: large;">秘密</span><br />
我想写在这里<br />
想告诉你<br />
一些我真实的想法<br />
『我不确定我们之间算什么或是我们以后将何去何从,我只知道你是我的一切而你永远都会是,你总是能带出另一半最好的我。』<br />
<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #999999;">『关于承诺,我对你答应过的承诺,就是永远永远不管我们怎样,我都不会抛下你不理』</span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: white;">你不理。』</span></span></span>Kenn Limhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16128478073199317314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8546911348000213654.post-55246783782978391522015-11-25T01:01:00.000+08:002015-11-25T01:01:39.148+08:00封篇之畢業典禮人説:“當你越想一個人,在夢里你就能見到她。”<br />
對,沒有錯<br />
但也有人説:“夢里和現實是相反的情景。”<br />
這句話也對,沒有錯<br />
因爲我在經歷著上述兩句話的事實<br />
<br />
有沒有試過心碎到睡覺也睡不了?<br />
我已經嘗試不去碰酒精去麻醉自己<br />
讓自己清醒的痛<br />
讓自己看清一切<br />
<br />
有點懶的寫在這里<br />
若你要故事<br />
就找本人問吧<br />
<br />
若沒什麽意外<br />
這將會是封篇<br />
將來再也沒什麽想寫下來了<br />
不開心的讓它過去,別寫下來<br />
開心的記心裏,把它拍下來<br />
<br />
穿了畢業袍,雖然不是學士(Degree)文憑但也足以讓我明白再次畢業的心情<br />
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