Happier

The song that recently that keep me playing at an emotional period

Ed Sheeran -- Happier

Talented artist, the lyric just write deep through my heart

For a long time, I feel like I never been myself

Until I met a girl recently

She

Is awesome, there are words I can't find to describe her

It just everything feels so right

Sometimes I discover we actually like the same stuff

And when I say same is that nerdy stuff

I just never met a girl that can differentiate DC comic and Marvel 

The more we talk the more I found we a lot in common

At the moment, I keep on review and alert myself

If I'm prepared or desperately jump into a relationship

The girl is interested 

But I afraid 

Because I'm not sure I ready to commit to another girl 

"God, please give me the strength." 

So, I told the girl I want to take it slow

She agreed

Because both of us hurt by those so call "TAKERS" in relationship

After that conversation, she confess to me that she still think about "HIM"

But I never told her that I still hold on Ms.J

Or told her anything about Ms.J stories

Because I want to start new, start fresh, left all old scar behind like nothing

5 years for a girl, I think I'm fair to say, there was no progress

I don't blame her, I just blame myself I can't give her feelings that fall in love with me

If the girl don't have the interest of you, there is nothing you can do to get her heart

If you do everything like I did to her and eventually she have feelings for you

Congrats, I wish and bless you both, because you are the lucky one

If not, please take your time move on and take every possibility to know every girl

I don't care you are flirt or being a jerk as long as you move on the girl who TAKES everything of you, including happiness

If you still can care for her, it's not a big deal, but REMEMBER REAL HARD, who you going to be when you care for her. As a friend? or as the person who loves her since the start.  

I can't believe I saying this 

But I did happier recently 

After I feel like happiness not going to fall on me anytime soon

But

I did feel happier to care for someone 

But hey

Once I confirm something 

I try to post her to tell my reader

OKAY?

Peace