Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Rewind

This year
Experience a lot
Sense getting better
Logical thinking getting better a bit, but sometime still a bit Noob 
Creative thinking, somehow grow with imagination, the more I think, the more I create
Social skill, still some shit, but observing getting better then before
Listening, more like people share those experience to me and I analyse it those situation with many perspective. 

I'm just a little kid, clawing in the dark
Life is maze, and love is a rhythm
I don't know where to go
I just doing things along 
Hope things will get better and better

Thank you those friend and family be with me in 2013. Love you all. 

Sunday, December 22, 2013

Corrupted

There's only one thing I know about life.
I know some things happen by chance,
And some things happen because we make them happen.

Barry Allen was a man haunted by his past.
But when he became the Flash, he left the ghosts behind.
He found love. A Family. Friends.
Barry thought yesterday was behind him...
...But somebody wouldn't let him escape it.

When Barry came to me for help, I turned him away.
I'm not the hero of this story.
I'm a man who's been corrupted by his own unbearable pain,

I'm a man who has too much blood on his hands to be called good.
I'm a man who had nothing to live for...
...until the day I met the Flash.

The first time I met Barry Allen, I nearly killed him.
Like I said, I'm not the hero of this story.

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Up on is about father to son letter, how tricky is this? 
Well, Barry A.K.A The Flash (A Superhero with super speed) He lost his superpower when he time travel back to past to change the original timeline ( His mom was murdered when he was 11 years old, so he went back to the past and save her but on the same time he won't have the superpower if he save his mom. ) 

Barry was trap in past, and he meet a friend father, Thomas Wayne. He told Thomas that the world have Flash, his son is alive, Bruce Wayne A.K.A The Batman. And when the Flash comes back the world that belong to Flash, Flash give the letter by Thomas wrote to his son. 

And this all I was talking about and the sentences impress me most is, " I'm a man who's been corrupted by his own unbearable pain. " I feel that, I really do. Why?

I been through with a person that suddenly lost all people that he/she love. I know losing someone that care so much in your life can make you suffer all time. All these pain, some day will corrupted you, you become insensitive for all the pain, and you just think you survive another pain more, you think this will make you more stronger, but it also the weaknesses that suddenly will collapse, break your psychic and make you become a psycho. 

The more suitable way to talking about recently me, is like " I don't care "
I'm tired to care those don't care people anymore. Damn tired. 
Tired to guess, tired to ask, tired to respond. 
Letting it go all the things, and glad is, football corrupted me and make me better, thank god.

Monday, December 09, 2013

无题

别再那么做了
已经足够了
足够了

别再去期待一些不可能的事情
别再去在乎许许多多,大大小小的事情
别再像一个小孩般的,一点承受力都没有

有些事情,其实一直都不是你的
你硬硬要拿,结果伤了自己,变成了的回忆
那隐隐作痛的回忆

时间长了,伤痛变成结疤
写作抒发的灵感区变成废墟
人变得安静,孤僻
与人交流的方式变得沉闷
因为你知道,有些事情怎么说也说不完,说不清
你只能默默的承受,慢慢的你会麻木,最后把变成你的习惯

我已经很习惯睡前,没有想着你睡着
已经很习惯不会去想,你现在在做什么
很习惯不再去想,于你有一个未来
习惯不再去期待我们的下一次的见面
习惯了你总会给我一些意想不到的失落意外惊喜

发现到,原来当我们面对面时,我几乎脑袋空白
我除了笑,还是笑,然后就静静的看着你,听你说
有时候会想
当我静静的看着你时,同时你也静静的看着我
我们不交流,就只是静静的坐着望着彼此而已

有时候我会恨自己给不到,喜欢你的感觉
我尽力做了我能做的,却给不到你想要的

我学会了总要保留一些给自己
即使我对你有很强烈的感觉
还是压制自己

我希望,以前的那个我再也回不来,你也别回来
我们设定一个承诺
那就是
在对方有了另一半时
不玩暧昧
彼此的交界就只是剩下好朋友而已