Fear

I never understood the actual fear

Until

Someone close to you 

Left

Without a sign

I guess

I'm too afraid to face it

It's been 

Two months

Since mom left

23 September

Date I couldn't forget

Father been grieving in his own way

Brother tried stepping up his game 

Sister same old same but I just hope

She will better than me, future

It's not easy for the pass few months

I been trying to be strong

Keep it together

Mentally prepare for anything

But

It's not enough

Some day I just told myself

Or worst lie to myself

That everything going be alright

Which not

I'm over stress

For everything

Mom

I just hope

Your afterlife

Got a better family

At this point

 At this point

You wonder how many failures you have been

Failure just another reason you get back up to your game

Life is like a game

Either you get cheat code on start

or you build from start

But you'll never too late

At the modern age

When you start to compare yourself to others

Means you desire

Desire something

Something more

Pursuit that goal is something next to your mind

But never

Ever

Defy your heart

Your origin idealism