Some new years

Sometime

Life just hits you

and they dare to say 

lightning never strikes twice

Just after two months

My other half mom

Left the world

The feelings of losing someone

It just hit again

Then 

We fell into a mess

We're all in a mess

We grasp so hard but it slips through so easily

I'm so mentally drained and tired

I told myself maybe all this

All this is a test

You know eventually

someone close to you'll leave

But you chose to ignore

because you know that not going to happen at the moment

Until

It happens

Then my love and I

We hit the lowest point of our life

I guess

We didn't properly manage our communication 

There comes our biggest argument since we knew each other

I guess

I always tried to avoid any conflict

or anything things that I'm really not confident of

But this had to change

and I trying

Hope the next update will be a fruitful and joyful ones

See ya