The HIKE

A few years later

I appreciate everything

The group that

Willing

Join me in the crusade

I forever grateful

The group that went through the trauma with me

Although deep down I never admit it

But this is my take

Although they don't realize

But hey, I told myself

This was never about anyone

or myself

It was getting the awareness or milestone 

For a person getting 30's

Do I want to spend the rest of my life

with her?

I was searching for the answer every night before I sleep

And

Yes

She brightens my day

Everyday

She was weird enough that made me feel comfortable

She sees my vulnerable side every time

She calls out my bullshit

She willing to stay

that all matters 

I damn lucky enough to have her

I love U

Some change

Happy new year, first

Reading back to my previous post

I smile

Smile because I knew

What I said 3 months ago, is an insanity check

Thanks to my previous self

I'm still on the same course, to be better

Recent

A better friend, that I never thought of

Blessed, and I grateful

I guess I try to make up those missed time

As I should be

I was emotional once, that can't change

I hope, I'm better now

And I felt that rational thinking I need it from years ago

Funny

The most rational-thinking friend I have 

Recently doing a lot of irrational decisions as I was years ago

I smirk

But I help anyway

Because I know how that darkness will look like if I let it be

I don't want another person to go into the abyss, that I went through years ago

But really up to him

And I hope he found happiness

Just because he is one of my best friend

The friend that I need when the moment of time

2AM

Father hasn't slept, he missed mom

Not because I guess, but because of his act

I'm powerless, to help him

The only way I can help him

Is to make sure, every damn time

He is feeling good and better

I couldn't imagine what he going through and I hope he found his way

Last drink for me, close to drunk for my body system

Closing here now and then

I wish and hope

Is a good year for me

If you reading this

Happy new year to you too

Wish you a great year ahead