Some change

Happy new year, first

Reading back to my previous post

I smile

Smile because I knew

What I said 3 months ago, is an insanity check

Thanks to my previous self

I'm still on the same course, to be better

Recent

A better friend, that I never thought of

Blessed, and I grateful

I guess I try to make up those missed time

As I should be

I was emotional once, that can't change

I hope, I'm better now

And I felt that rational thinking I need it from years ago

Funny

The most rational-thinking friend I have 

Recently doing a lot of irrational decisions as I was years ago

I smirk

But I help anyway

Because I know how that darkness will look like if I let it be

I don't want another person to go into the abyss, that I went through years ago

But really up to him

And I hope he found happiness

Just because he is one of my best friend

The friend that I need when the moment of time

2AM

Father hasn't slept, he missed mom

Not because I guess, but because of his act

I'm powerless, to help him

The only way I can help him

Is to make sure, every damn time

He is feeling good and better

I couldn't imagine what he going through and I hope he found his way

Last drink for me, close to drunk for my body system

Closing here now and then

I wish and hope

Is a good year for me

If you reading this

Happy new year to you too

Wish you a great year ahead