To Mrs J

This time was different

Different than before

Yea

The feelings was hard and painful 

But it all came by

Around 

Bend 

After all these days I smile at those memory

Those memory I think will hurt me 

I told myself 

Those memory

Those moment 

I was smile and glad 

Maybe some flaws in those memory but

joy memory more then flaws 

and that was okay for me

Don't cry on those happy memory you have with people

Those are beautiful memory 

Don't let sadness take away from it

It take away enough from you 

Don't tears 

If you're thinking a happy, warm, joy memory 

These memory are deserves more than tears 

You should smile on it

You know 

Sometimes 

I think I was stupid to write those letter for you

Telling my feelings and truth for you is right

But

It is unnecessary

It is unnecessary

Well, I guess love can cloud your judgement was right after all 

I mean I was a stupid after all 

Don't I?

I mean why should I worry about losing you when you tell me I don't need to. 

I don't want to have you 

Why should I?

When I know I'm the only person that know you well

When I know I can have a female friends willing travel with me

When I know I can be your best friend ever in your life

When I know I can seduce you in some ways 

When I know I can give you some different taste in life

When I know I can learn about girls from you

When I know I can learn about how to take care a girl 

When I know I can share your burden

When I know I can shout on you, you can shout on me

When I know we can share about photography 

When I know someone that have the same taste with me

When I know you are weirdo as me 

After all of this

Then 

Why should I having you when I know can let you tears a lot?

I know if I can't let you stop, that is my problem 

But I did always did let you stop, don't I? 

And that enough reason for me to stay by your side. 

Just fuck others telling me that leave you is for my own good. 

Okay?