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As I look at her, her eyes and tone are meant what she said.

Past few weeks ago, we talk about like a lot. Things are more simple then I ever imagine about. When she talks, I knew every words she said is truth, at least that moment she can't lies about feelings. I tried to stand by her side of view, tried not to be judgemental or a jerk. I stare at her as she talking all about the mess she been through, it was... well I just can't say a thing, not a single, because I'm not her, all those decision she make had already made, so what I do is keep my opinion inside for myself and give her a smile. And my ears are all hers. 

I doing good recently, build up my body so that can carry a person while climbing a mountain. But those fat are not going to lose me if I not control eat and burn it. About she, I hope she also well prepare, if not I going to carry her up to the mountain and non-negotiable for her. I'm carrying her up! 

All those story she told, some I can respond, some I wanted to, but instead of telling her, I rather keep it to myself, because I know she won't listen. Stubborn head! 

What I can do is a simple smile, for her. The last thing before I left, or we end our little meet up, I really need her to remember my smile. Just my smile. 

As I told her those birthday card I made and those hundred stars I fold for her. She said I never gift her before. Neither last year or previous years. Last hangout I told her I did, but she never received my gift before. Her voice are so sure about that. So, she ask when? I just smile away. 

Yeah. I did once for her. And she broke my heart. 

For the card and stars I made

Please hide away from her, so that she'll never find out.

Paper Girl

I wonder.

I wonder how it will going be.

I wonder what your mind thinking?

You just like Margo Roth Spiegelman.

When I think about you, I always think the back of your head.

I picture cracking your lovely skull, unspooling your brain, trying to get answers.

You may say all those movie I watched or the book I read,

I might in too deep about the character and make compare with you.

Truth is, there are some element inside of you that I can make imagine. 

If not, why all those movie entitle "This is based a true story" then will be a good movie? 

I think because all those real life experience, so I will make compare and imagine always.

So, Margo is a special one, until now who I can think of in my real life Margo, is you.

Why you? 

1. She always think sometimes people are fake, she said those are paper people.

2. She is a good planner and a dare devil.

3. She want to disappear and not to be found, start real fresh. 

You could say:"That not even like me."

But this is how I imagine what you like.

I can imagine what you look like, but never quite perfectly.

Because people are people, you can't force them to do or look what you want them look like.

我還是我

首先，每當我上部落格寫東西前，我都會逐個去閱讀我有跟隨的人。由於本人最近太多戲看而且有新書，加上也沒什麼感情或事蹟可以寫。基本上，部落格漸漸被遺忘了。而且我總是喜歡深夜的時候才寫東西，比較有感覺。

首先，先回复我讀了一個人的部落格，來一個很簡單的總結。三八。沒有別的意思，就覺得，很三八。別把我的三八的意思看成貶義，可能正正相反。

最近發現，我也很愛一次過，用一口氣講完我想講的東西，同時也很愛諷刺別人，雖然是沒有心。觀察與思考是我的最愛，哪怕我的思考會遲鈍些。

讓我想想我還有什麼缺點？

很煩人算是不是缺點？某些時候我真的覺得我自己很煩，聆聽太多人的故事，做一個聆聽者太久了，可是卻找不到一個聆聽者，挺傷心的。所以可能在談話中，我說了很多很奇怪的話，或者是無端端跳話題。可能我的腦袋不像別人那樣，我總是喜歡跳話題，跳着說話題比較有趣還有挑戰。怪卡一個。

對事情期望太高，我覺得期望高不是問題，問題是期望高到不會變通才是問題。同時我很驕傲去看待一件自己覺得很不起眼，別人卻很緊張的事情，簡稱，興趣，不屑。明明就很簡單的解決，問題是什麼大家都很清楚，但就是害怕一些很不相關的問題。告訴你，你先把當下的問題解決，未來問題再一一的想辦法，我們只有這個時刻，下個時刻發生的事留給下個時刻。對於感情事，理智去分析別人的問題，給了解決方式。最討厭的是：對方卻退縮，告訴你害怕去實行，顧慮許多。啊啊啊啊啊啊！想到這裡，我快發瘋了！因為我不只是為一個人提供“咨訊顧問”。

好心忠告：若你打算一刀兩斷，那幹嘛還顧慮那麼多？廢話一堆！

大家都說，長痛不如短痛？其實我覺得錯了，其實沒有短痛，只有長痛。

好，我自認我有點混蛋。是真的，可能覺得我怎麼罵也罵不走的人，才是對我真，最了解我的人，同時也是我最愛的人。

在還沒結束之前，謝謝你帶回來的巧克力，還有一個讓我很吃驚的禮物，高粱酒，還是特級版。真的沒想到你會送我那麼特別的禮物。