Thursday, August 29, 2013

Past Is Just A Past Tense

Everybody chatting with their friend and change heart to heart to each others. Well, I mean my secondary high school friend. Seem like now only few of them, care about me and I truly care, although before that I care most of them, but now seem lost something. I guess, my new life just started. New place, new friend, new start. 

Once, I made a mistake. I mistake that nearly my friend. I was reviewing back the picture that I store in my phone between our memory, I felt, stranger. I began delete all of it, when I was selecting the picture, I realize there was a ME, that been fall in love to a person so much before. Lucky, I didn't expect too much, because I always knew but I don't want to admit it. Truth always cruel, but you need to face it. Those day I was living in hell.

And now, I started a new way to communicate with you, like best friend, like a family member. Normally, before that I was miss you like hell. But now, I'm already not the person use to be miss you so so so much, but sometimes will miss you, but base on friend and family feelings. People said, when you can't make a relationship with her, then finally she will become your "adopted" sister. Tell you, I don't care which relationship, or what position I in your heart, but I believe I'm the person you need, when you needed it.

Whatever past is past, leave it behind or become yourself as the lonely sad person that always trap in the past memory. 

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

感觉分享

有時候你會因為太愛一個人了
只要看到她幸福就好了
你會不忍心告白
不忍心破壞現在的未滿關係
默默的守護著她
就已經很開心了



如果你想放肆的愛
那就先學會遺忘
忘掉失戀痛楚才可以大膽愛
你可以去做一切事情
但前提是不會為結果傷悲
一個人真正的強大
並非看他能做什麼
而是看他能承擔什麼



過去無法重寫,但它卻讓我更加堅強。


如果你早點看清你在別人心中的位子
你會快樂許多



做不成男女朋友,做个特别的朋友!
两个可能彼此相爱、互相喜欢
但是,又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种
彼此不能成为男女朋友,只能做个特别的朋友
也许是为了朋友之间的义气,不能归属。
也许是为了顾及家人的意见,不能归位。
也许是为了自己的前程,不能承诺。
也许是相遇太早,还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许是相遇太晚,彼此身边已经有了另一个人。
也许是回头太迟,对方已不再等待。
也许彼此在捉摸对方的心,而迟迟无法跨出界线
不过即使没在一起, 
彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉, 
仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系。 
但是彼此心底清楚, -
对这个人,你比朋友还多了一份关心。 
因为有了彼此,心里总是被幸福塞的满满的
即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街, 
还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。 
彼此有喜欢的人,口头上会说不吃醋, 
心里却会觉得胃疼
对方遇到困难时, 
会尽全力伸出援助之手, 
不会计较谁又欠了谁。 
对方生病了, 
会缴尽脑汁找药方, 
恨不得变成护士,陪伴在身旁
每个人这辈子, 
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友, 
很矛盾的行为。 
一开始可能不甘心只做朋友的, 
但久了,突然发现这样最好。 
宁愿这样关心对方的心情, 
总好过彼此生活在一起受伤害
做不成男女朋友, 
当个特别的朋友, 
有什么不好呢? 
你心中的这个特别的朋友? 是谁呢 ?
很多的感情,
都败在了现实的面前
友情可以演变成为爱情, 
爱情最终进化成为亲情, 
彼此就将友情直接进步到亲情
人生不过百年
能牵手的时候,请别只是肩并肩, 
能拥抱的时候,请别只是手牵手, 
能在一起的时候,请别轻易分开, 
能成为红颜知己,请别刻意离开! 
珍惜彼此之间塌实的感觉
从现在起,你不理我 ; 我也不会再理你了
这就是所谓的知心朋友心头上的好朋友



原来这感觉已演变成无知觉的痛
不是感受不到什么
而是选择不再去感受那么糟糕的感觉
把感觉封闭起来
继续自己原本的生活

Monday, August 26, 2013

九月

现在我应该要睡了
一直想写东西
可是因为忙的关系
没写

九月
就快来了
也是我最忙的时刻
我的希望全部都寄托在这个九月份
我会好好珍惜

少了思念
少了牵挂
一切变得有点“干”
呵呵
但不急一切
在这之前
想认识更多的朋友
有些人,注定在你生命中出现
然后有一些消失了
但还有一些留下来,一直陪着你
那叫做缘份

#此作品乃是的#


Monday, August 19, 2013

给 +1 的你

那个时常为我的博客+1的那个人
我很想知道你是谁
谢谢你时常关注我
可能也只是有人偶然进入我的博客
然后留下一个足迹

该做的,已做了
剩下的就让它发生吧
以前我总会把事情控制在我的范围内
但现在
我已不再拥有任何期待,或者计划
我觉得我做的这一切
足够了
若在多一些
就真的挽回不了

现在
我应该用哪种表现去面对你?
假装?不在意?不知情?
自然。
就自然吧!
你不提,我不提
你提起,我安静听

有时候
是我们想拥有的太多
想把一切都计划在里面

有时候
我们只想要简单
但却忘了如何怎么简单化

你问我
你是如何从那么受伤事情里走出来的?
旅行散心?下一个目标?工作麻醉?
应该统统都不是吧
不去在乎,不去期待
把自己的感觉放任在空白的时空
然后继续走下去

等待某天
有一个人能把在你的感觉
从空白的时空里
把你找回来
那才是你要去珍惜的

现在的我
空白着
但还相信着
等待着

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

累。了

那些年,月老牵错线
那些年,丘比特射错箭
那些年,心碎剧本每晚上映

原来
一切都是自己心甘情愿
没强逼

可能自己真的有点累了
想休息一下

我把自己给你给的太多了
我想剩下的留给自己

你没接电话的那天
我并不担心
因为有一个比我更担心你的
会陪在你身边

那天其实我是想约你去马六甲
突然间约的
同时看看你愿不愿意给我一个机会

你没回复,也没理会
等到今天,变成绝望

没关系
我自己一个人还是去了
可以拍照
同时也可以散散心
把这一切散走

谢谢你
把我变的更勇敢
把我变的更坚持

我能做的也只到这里

#后记#






说真的
我还有机会吗?

Monday, August 05, 2013

Lose it all, Sorry.

Hopeless 
End it now, please
Don't giving me hope again
Just tell me and then end my missing about you

Suffer right now
Please just told me your answer
I'm truly want to end this
I can't get through any more

Every evidence is talking about I going to lose you
When I admit at mouth, deny it at bottom heart
And now, I feel lost, about you
I really really really don't know how to face you any more

Told you
I going to lose all the feelings about you
Seem you not interest of me
I going to lose it all
Lose it all
All
Like I use to be

I guess time to say goodbye?
Yeah I think so.



Sorry for all when I writing this in drunk situation. Sorry. 

不剩一切的活着

这句话
时常对我自己说
没有爱情
你还剩什么?

可能就是因为这样
时常把自己弄得一切都不在乎

酗酒
可能我接下来会做的事情
现在原来我能明白
酗酒的人
原来是这样的

我真的并不完美
每个人都会有缺点
但,爱你的人,会有多少?

谢谢你
家人
给予我无声的支持

无厘头说一句
谢谢你们让我酗酒后,找回理智的我

Sunday, August 04, 2013

Recognize

I'm tired 
Today football keep running
Now a late night post, and just drink with some old friend
Get some advise from them, and hope them all were wrong when they comment on you
because I know there is more than that, when they comment about you
Maybe they were not stuck in that type of situation before, I won't blame them

And now, I broke my vow about shutting myself a month
but I reopen just because I afraid somebody are looking to contact me so badly, but non of it
So, after that day, I shutting myself again 2 week
Hope all things go well, and ...

#####################################################

Sometimes, my friends were right
look back all the things happen
it was a tragedy, for me
but I don't think so
because I believe
I have beyond the love about you 

Every time what on my mind is not going to succeed 
because I just living in my fantasy world
maybe I'll stuck in again some infinity loop

Every time I was down or being hurting
I told myself
I must stronger enough to protect what I meant to
Mental or Physical
Anything 

Maybe someday Iron Man will recognize his energy is not enough to save the world.